Inspiration

June 7, 2013

Leaves blowing in the wind. The sound of a truck going by. The rugged sidewalk outside a Courthouse. All beautiful things to me. Sounds, sights and smells all hold inspiration. For me it does. Memories do as well. Yesterday, I got an idea for my 44^th novel idea. I wrote some it down, as it was still kind of patchy. It was based on some memories I have with my best friend. I haven't spoke to her in over two years. She had an issue with me, and couldn't come to me about it. So we stopped talking. I think about her a lot. We have been friends for over 26 years and she has always been the odd opposite of me.

Anyway, I spend some down time last night between reading books, working out ideas for the tree novels. I spent a lot of time looking at Google Images, just triggering ideas and inspiration so I had something to brainstorm with. It isn't always easy trying to come up with a believable plot for a novel. Sometimes, I just have to write and allow it to fall together by itself. I just know that I have to get some of these ideas out of my head. They march around like little sailors wanting to go on shore leave. So many ideas.

It hurts sometimes to have so many ideas in my head. It sucks up all concentration and focus on other things I need to be doing. Like sitting at a stop light thinking about a battle scene. The car behind me is honking. Yep, I didn't notice it was green, because I was dreaming in a moment in time. So I have to make time to get things out, so I have more brain space and focus. I know it sounds so alien, but it works for me.

My stories need to be told. Well, more like demand to be told. Brian space, remember? Poems are not as bad as novels. They take up less space in my head.

I have thought about writing poetry again. I was reading some of my poems today. That is a bit inspiring for me. I always have something to write about. I haven't done much of it over the months. I wrote a really nice heartfelt one in January after the Cowboy dumped me, again. Writing again would mean, always have a little notebook or something to jot things down. Which can be very annoying a times, because poems don't come to me just when I am sitting down. I can't retain a poem in my head for long. I have tried, trust me. I don't know how many I have lost, because I don't have that stupid piece a paper to write it on. So most of the time, I just let them flow out and into nothingness. Forgotten because I had no paper. Somewhat tragic. Just maybe I will write some poetry in the near future.

I will be filling my weekend with lots of inspiration and ideas. If I am lucky and I don't get more depressed about the Cowboy. It is sad he has so much control over my heart. I hope to finish the one sentence summaries for the newest 4 novel ideas. The Just Trilogy already has the summaries down and the start of the characters. The tree novels and the newest novel idea, do not. Ugh, I hate writing when it seems more like work then fun. So I will be working on summaries, outlines, scene cards and characters this week. What fun. Yay! NOT. I hope to have that at least started. I need to write at least 2,000 today on any novel, so I can get prepped for Camp NaNoWriMo in July. It is better to start the daily count now, so it won't be so hard to reach that word count in July. Ugh!

So, I will just have to see how inspired I am. As inspiration is my motivator. At least it was in the past. Heartbreak is a horrible inspiration as well as motivator. This one is kind of killing me slowly. And I am struggling with both right now. Badly. I need inspiration. I need to focus on telling my story. No matter how horrible the tale might be.

At least it is something. Better then nothing.

Maybe. . .

Ideas

June 6, 2013

“When all is said and done, more is said than done.” ~Lou Holtz

More is in my head, then it is out of my head. It is working it self out, slowly. And when it comes to completing my artistic goals, I am majorly failing. Big time. The only major thing I have done with it comes to creating something has been that I wrote 51,737 words on Vacant Struggle in April for Camp NaNoWriMo. I had too. I have never failed making a goal since 2007 and I am not going to start now. And the Next Camp Nano is coming up starting July 1^st.

I guess the point is: Am I committed enough to write 50,000 words for July? I haven't failed at achieving it yet, but April was hard. I didn't want to write at all. I only wrote because I remembered how much the Cowboy enjoyed my idea of a zombie novel. Sigh, the Cowboy.  So in all honesty, my inspiration was a man that doesn't want anything to do with me. Lovely, isn't it?

My mind has been all over the place lately. Mostly about the Cowboy and my Poppa. In the month of May I roughed out 3 new novels and laid the ground work for 3 others in the trilogy. So a total for 6 new ideas for novels in the month of May. That as well as trying to write a little bit on the others that are just kind of hanging fire. I have 43 novels started now.  That is at least something. Right? I just added a new trilogy: Splintered Righteousness, Broken Illusions and Whispers of Truth to the bunch. I am thinking about calling it The Just Trilogy.  I might change it, as it just doesn't sit right in my mind. It is just a working Title for the trilogy.  I worked out the summaries, and started the characters. And then Boom! I got 4 new ideas. So I have the following now:  Lost Willow, Whispering Birch, Flowering Hawthorn and the Lonesome Pine. I am still working out particulars on those four. But the ideas are coming. I am just writing them down, so I can get back to them when I have more time to work on them.

Well, that is 7 in just two days! Please someone shut my mind off. I don't have time for all this. In 30 days I have come up with 13 different novels. Good thing I started keeping a novel list, allow with a character list for each novel I am working on. It is hard to keep track of all of them.

So NOW I have to decide which novel I am going to work on for Camp NaNoWriMo July. I probably will go with Vacant Bodies, which continue my trilogy about Zombies. I have even been crocheting a zombie. It will have a zipper head, so brains can be taken out. It is really cool. It is to help me be motivated and inspired. Well, I haven't been working on it. I started it last year, but after the Cowboy jerked my heart around, I stopped working on it. I have to be happy when I crochet or knit. I can't create something full of sadness. Anyway, I am thinking about working on two novels in July. I don't know if I am up to it, but I need to push myself. 50,000 words is the goal, which is only 1,667 per day. That is pretty simple for me. I can do that in usually within two hours. So I could double that to 3,334 per day. One for each novel. I will have to really think about it. It might be too much for me. It would be easier if my laptop hadn't died in March. It was old. GAH! I need a laptop, this would be so much easier to work 43 novels on it then a bulky desk top computer.

Anyway, I have another idea for a novel. It just popped in my head. Save me from myself! The mind is a terrible thing to waste, but it also is a terrible thing when it is out of control as well. I need an off switch. Really.

Sigh. . .